I often get lost in my thoughts, trying to figure out my right path. Some paths seem so right and then when I start to travel down them, I’m not so sure any longer. Sometimes, I head down no path at all as I have completely overthought everything, making me not want to choose a direction. There are other times, something feels right, but then ends up turning out wrong – especially this past year. I would much rather hide out, then face the day. This seems to be the normal of my life these days.
What is disappointing to me in this situation is that, deep down, I know what path to take. I just refused to listen to my inner self. That small voice within me, that has always guided me and directed me seems so distant and far away. You see, like most, the past few years have been really dark and full of despair. It has been hard to find that light that was always there – the positive way of looking at every obstacle tossed in my way. No matter what direction I go, I find myself disappointed by the decision I have made. I constantly feel like a failure when things don’t go as planned.
Through all of these feelings, despair and more, I need to remind myself that tomorrow is a new day. I am worthy of all of the positive things that are to come. I need to push myself to find my way out of the darkness that seems to be consuming my waking hours. Tomorrow WILL be a better day if I only allow it to be. Some may wonder why I am writing this. This is because I know I am not alone with this feeling. I have seen so many I know go through similar feelings, losses and more. On the outside, we may look like we have it all together, but on the inside, we are crying out.
By writing about my struggles, I am hoping to help others also see and know they are not alone. Tomorrow IS another day for us to find what is missing and see the light the day has to offer. Many blessings to you all!
